Perphaps it true
Perphaps it’s true. That i really is the kind of person who do things to my convenience.
If im tired, i hope my date, outing, everything can be cancelled, so that i can stay at home. When something unexpected happens, i prefer that the problem disappear. I prefer everything peaceful, simple and relaxed.
Im an escapist. Since when? Since i found out that the best way for me to deal with conflict was to not face it. For me, facing it will only aggravate the problem. Hiding away from it hoping that the problem will disappear suddenly is my solution. If it didnt disappear, i will reject it until it does. They work sometimes, allowing me to escape from unwanted reactions. yea, escaping doesnt solve the problem but it shield and protected me. It keeps my self esteem from being lowered more.
Sometimes the problem resolves by itself and forgotten. Sometimes it didnt, it stayed inside my heart even though people who were in the conflict didnt pursue it anymore.
Let it go , let it go . i always say that to myself. Time will let things fade away. In between now and then, let’s just bear with the frustration and pain.
Letting things cool off isnt dealing with the problem. It’s not trying to take things easy. It’s just avoidance. avoiding to solve the problem caused by myself.
