Dun ReaD mY bLoG…

It’s strange how we try to recall memories of people who are gone . People who still live can create new memories with you again , however, people whom have gone first can never do that with us again.

Before i slowly forget everything , i type it down. Writing is simply too slow.

My grandfather passed away exactly one year ago . He was the one who bought me crayons when i was in kindergarden. Before that, all my drawings and shadings were in grey. i coloured them with 2B pencils.

He was working in a country club and sometimes he will bring back golf balls of different colours for us. Orange. yellow , white.

Sometimes he went fishing and brought back live fishes. Two long fish in a bucket, one fat fish in bathing bucket. Then he will kill them for dinner. i never eat fishes then. Sometimes he will get bitten by the fish. The more serious one is by the fat fish. Lots of blood keeps flowing out from his hand. As he aged, he never went fishing again.

Me and my sister always took pillows from all the rooms and create an imaginary castle on my aunt’s double decker bed. When my grandfather is home from work, game’s over. I used to hate him coming home. Soon, he retired.

When my grandfather was still working, meals were prepared by my grandmother. i used to love his once in a blue moon cooking. After he retired, he cooked everyday. i start to prefer my grandma’s once in a blue moon cooking. But i still love his pig trotters very much.

Every new year eve , he would prepare the ingredients for steamboat. As i grew older, i start to help him. it was tedious task. On the new year eve before he was gone, me and my sister reach there late. We saw my grandfather at the void deck. He suddenly started talking about his childhood like he is leaving his legacy to us. He told us about how his mother, younger brother and sister was killed by a guy holding parang. How he learned smoking as a child, how he stuff ashes in smoke pipe to prevent them from smoking 大麻. How after his family death, he walked to the town to find job. How he and meet his sworn brother and went into smuggling business . He told us he smuggled only cigarettes and beer, never drugs. How his sworn brother’s wife introduce my grandmother to him. he recalled being asked "why marry her? she is so ugly." He laughed when he said this. I feel like he was going to cry soon. He seemed to be stopping tears from coming out of his eyes. Soon we went up to have our last renioun dinner.

He loved to go to China. Everytime with his friends. i remembered him telling me " this will be the last time i will be going there " be4 his last trip. I told him dont anyhow say ..

Last year’s june, my grandfather was admitted to hospital for stroke. i went to take care of him everyday and applied powder and lotion on his skin. Most of the time , when he sleep , i will also be sleeping in the most ungirly posture. When i companied him to physiotheraphy, the nurse told me his eye sight was getting poorer. After he will discharged, i went overseas.

Weeks after i came back , he was admitted to the hospital again . i didnt go down to visit him at all. And soon he passed away. When he passed away, i was doing my first lab . My handphone kept ringing, and soon a msg from my uncle told me that he passed away. When i reached the void deck, i was suddenly filled with regrets and sadness. tears automatically flow out.

Soon , people started carry my grandfather’s body back, dressed, placed him in the coffin. People started to arrange the funeral.

And i knew that he was gone.

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Ironically, one year later, my tuition kid passed away unexpectedly.

Who would actually see that a normal cough and flu can kill a healthy child. It’s proven that we must never underestimate nature and overestimate science.

We know each other for one year. Together, we have improved greatly and deproved suddenly.. Together we have been scolded by her mother. Together we tried to conquered maths and english . Although, maths was bad, there was still improvement. English was a flop.

I gave her lots maths timetable tests, she tried, i gave her alot of hints and she scored full marks at last. i told her to remember 7 X 7 by thinking 七七四十九天. i taught her how to use fingers for 9 timetable. She was mastering her maths division. She was doing it at a faster speed. She is slowly understanding how to use models for multiplication problem sums and reduce her tikum answers. yea… she always tikum her answers. anyhow get two numbers from the problem and add and minus. after much scolding, she finally reduced it. She was left handed, and i told her mum that she will be good in maths in the later part of her primary school.

It was funny to think of me using maple to get her awake during classes. i will ask her what’s her job and she will tell me magical and i have to correct her and say MA GI CIAN. I have to get her awake by promising her meso .Whenever, she wants to play maple, she will sms me or call me. my sister and brother recognises her cute voice. She will always ask me for meso never fail . Always type "give me money" .. "money money money" .. " give me one million". I helped her level up and gave her all her clothes. it’s funny to see her calling me because her typing speed is very very slow .. When her level was 8, i was 10 . when my level is 30 , she is still 11 … I missed the second last lesson accidently , and she msg me to play with her . I enjoyed playing with you.

During chinese new year this year, i saw one of her attributes. She was unlike me when i was small. Halfway through the lesson , she went to take CNY goodies to eat and i was offered to eat also. i liked the tapioca chips alot. After the lesson, i asked her to open the door for me. She asked me to wait and went into the kitchen and pour a generous share of chips into the plastic bag for me to take home and eat. It really left an impression on me .. such a young child, such a big heart.

She went into coma after being sent to hospital. Her heart stopped twice. When her mother told me that , i jolted out from the bed. i was relieved she was strong. The virus was too strong for such a young girl to conquer. She has put on a great fight. it was saddening to see her lifeless in the coffin and her family’s distraughted faces. She was the youngest in the family yet the first one to leave. She was my longest tuition kid. I was hoping i could teach her till pri 6 .

Someone told me there there are 7 person in the world that looks exactly the same. Maybe, i will see someone like you again ..

Farewell my dear. Rest in peace …